Steel Heart

I think someone cracked open my steel heart, I thought I had it on lock down like fort knox, it must have been a sneak attack. sneaky bastard. what can i do? i have all these emoitions pouring out like amazing colorful waterfalls, i kinda like it, i kinda feel sick, i kinda feel excited, i don't like change, but i like different, if that makes sense. I don't know, it's a good intense feeling after all, I thought there was just empty space in this chest of mine, now I know that at least i'm human. it's not broken, just cracked open.

I feel like i'm holding a bunch of broken hearts on my plate, I feel weird or different, I never knew I could be so caring, but i understand a lot of people now, I think i fell down to earth from whatever planet I was on before, I feel more connected to people than i have in a long time.

my little dog makes noises in her sleep like she is having a nightmare. :(

this is something i wrote before when i believed in love:

did you know what they say about a kiss?
it comes from the spirit, and as the two souls connect, your mind disappers and all you do is feel.

do you know how i feel when i kiss you?
i feel like i don't want to kiss anyone else, your the only one boy that i want in my bed, your the only one I long to sleep with.

do you know i'm crazy about you?
and i'm crazy about every kiss, the way your love transfers into my soul, the impact entraps my being, sending me into a blissful trance, only me and you can fully understand.

Do you know how much I love you?
i will fight for you, whatever it takes, i know we only have one chance at true love, i will never let anything come between us. my heart belongs to you.

*you know, maybe the sneaky bastard is me*