GLEEE Audition!

My and my friend decided to audition for GLEE last minute, I wish I had more time to prepare but it's kinda cute and funny. Check it out!


Glee monologue

Glee | MySpace Video


Glee song

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Video Queen

Some Videos and pics of this weekend instead of writing :)

going to sell my car and go to Vegas

somebody told me that's where dreams would be, love that song....by sara bareilles


I just booked a suite for the July 4th weekend, just a girls trip, some great girls that I met on the this wacky tv show I did. We said after that crazy experience where only we know what really went down, we all need to celebrate in Vegas together, and we made it happen. I hope it actually becomes a tradition. ++++Added to the group is my friend Denise, we act together in a bunch of different films. It's kinda funny actually. I love Vegas because there is always something to-do, last year I was obsessed with trying to get a real tan, I usually spray tan, but this year, I'm just going to spray tan, and not worry about it, I can't tan in real life, I'm over it!

And I love going to H&M, not just because it's Swedish clothing, but because it's really cheap & cute, they don't have a store here in Texas, shopping is always fun at the Cesar's palace and they have a bunch of great places to eat in Vegas too, great sushi at Tao, and Treasure island, at the Paris they have the best breakfast buffet, if you can actually wake up in time to get to it! I'm going to try this year!

It's just full of ridiculousness, no one knows each other, & everyone is in Vegas to have a good time. My favorite thing to do are the pool parties, because everyone is just about having fun, and it's way different from the night clubs, you can actually see everyone and because at night people are on the prowl to hook up with someone, you can see it in their eyes....... not me, lol, I'll pass, I'll be at the blackjack table drinking screwdrivers. Or at our own table in the back of the club.

I put some pics up from last year, can't wait to take new ones!


Cute bikinis, frozen drinks, dancing, shows, and I think I'm the only one in the group that actually likes to gamble. That's Vegas baby :D.

This is me writing

too many questions, not enough answers
so many sights to see, not enough chances

if i painted a picture for all the beautiful moments,
i wouldn't have enough paint, to capture all the emotions
and if I sang a song to express it all,
it would probably be too long, and I would probably get turned off

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slowly little flower
underneath the tree
waiting for the sunset
the darkness sets you free

up onto the wild places
where roaming is a must
tried and failed over again
onto the breaking cusps

wish you had a road to follow
that wouldn't bring you to your knees
but the flower that you've become today
is taller than any tree

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{This is a song I wrote about a year ago}


YESTERDAYS

can i live again, like i used to
can i give in, and trust you
will you break away, all my boundaries
and accept me, piece by piece

i keep dreaming, just not sleeping
eyes wide open, never seeing
my heart stops beating, when i say goodnight, my love

and I keep on sinking, deep into my past
searching for the yesterdays, I keep on turning
in the wrong direction, tell me can you see me now

Confessions of a Blog Queen

That's not me, I don't confess too much on here, I really keep it kosher and clean, but I will say one thing, I hate this feeling I'm having right now, I'm really scared and worried about something, you know when you have that sick feeling in your stomach, and you've had it from the beginning? but you ignore and then it comes back a little later? Hmmmm, don't know if I'm making sense, maybe to some people... but not to everyone, anyways, we will see tomorrow.... AH!

So I wrapped on filming Reinfield today, it's a vampire movie, I've never gotten attacked by a vampire, so that's another one to put in the books, it was better than being attacked by something else that's for sure, and we made it sexy.

We actually filmed where my parents own a beach house, random I know, because it's this super small ass fishing town. So, of course I totally road tripped up here with my parents and on the 3 hour drive we talked about movies, Vegas, mary jane, hahaha! & we made fun of my little pig dog, named Chancha, she's gained some weight, 4 pounds to be exact! That's a lot for a now 14 pound dog! Once when we got here, we took the little electric cars and drove around the little town, saw what bar I was going to be filming at, saw the fishing center where no one was, because the weather totally sucks, so we went to the store and got some blue bell ice cream & lotto tickets. Once we came back and ate/unloaded I typed on the computer until my hands alomost fell off about this film that I want to shoot, it's easy to write because it's based on a couple of true stories, it's just writing it in sync and putting it into some kind of interesting format. I wrote as much as I could until I passed out at 9pm. Then I woke up at 1am because I thought of the ending and did not want to forget, or could I let myself fall back asleep, I really tried, I was too lazy to get up, but at least I finished it! The story part not the script. & Damn it's hard to write a screen play, I didn't realize all the detail until I started doing it, but I'm up for the challenge & my friend who is a real screen writer is also going to be writing it along with me. Together we'll make it badass. I'll give more details later ;)... Then we woke up this morning, went bike riding for about an hour, talked about hot tennis guys, this new one from Spain is becoming pretty good, had tons of coffee, then off to set to film a vampire movie.

Had tons of fun throughout the day, even had some amazing seafood gumbo and took some pics on EASY street, lol. So we had to look the part.

Check it out!

Tired of being someone else

I most definitely am an actress, I most definitely put on a show most of the time, it's like that always, I used to not be like that, I swear I find myself saying that a lot. I used to not care about what anyone thought or said, but kinda am seeing a water downed version of myself lately.

I don't like it. I guess I got lazy. Moving on.

I was thinking about heartbreak, I recently talked to someone who has seemed to have a lot of heartbreak, and it made me a little jealous, I wish I could love someone that much. I think I had my heart broken just once when I was 15 and I never was able to put it back together. So in the words of Andy Warhol, "how can you ever fall apart, if you never really fell together?" I often think about him when I feel like this. I wish I could go be a pretzel in his arms again. I told him he was my best friend, he made my heart melt, I loved everything about him, he had the best smile, he was so cute, and we had a secret love affair. Um, could you ask for more? I was 15, hello, I could just die right then, it was the best thing in the world. I'll never forget our special moments, and how his car smelled like red Gatorade. This was before facebook and myspace, before digital cameras. I only have a couple of pictures of us, because documenting your life was not really what people did too much of back then, but isn't it funny when someone dies, you wish you had so many more pictures of that person? I mean that seems to be the case with me. I miss him, what I would do to get him back? hmmmm....... anything. I never knew what I was going to do with my life, but I do wish he could be here now, that he could see me now, what I grew into, I know we would still be friends, I know he would love this little crazy life of mine. I'm thinking he on the other hand would have a 9-5 right now, it just seems that way because that's the way he was, very simple kinda. I long for a simple life, and some real heartache.

The picture is Ken and I at one of my first shows, I wrote this album called Transitions and song number 11 was for the boy I'm talking about in my blog, but I think I'm going to write a better one, now that I've been doing this a while.

I can't clean anymore

I'm really really trying to clean and get everything done in one day, it's so boring! i can't do it, I feel like I would so rather be doing anything else. I keep lugging everything around, and it seems like I'll never be done. But I most definatly want to finish today because I need to start singing/recording/writing again, and I want to start that next week, and tomorrow I leave for a couple of days at the beach, I film on Friday, and Sat I'm at a wedding, so sunday I'll probably be hungover again, I really need to stop drinking, haha! YIKES! So you see my problem is that I really want a chocalate cupcake and someone to clean my place for me. I could pay someone, but then I still have to tell them where everything goes, and that is the main thing is just putting the shit up. WAH :(, what a complainer I am, and you know it didn't really help one bit. hahaha! HELP ME! ~Julin

peace

You know me, but you don't.
I'm not what you think I am, but I am
exactly what you want.
An artist of sorts, a lover of life, whatever comes my way, I handle it with a bang.

Music life

Music sometimes is like the soundtrack to my life, I have much love for many people that write songs that capture the mood, especially when I need it, like driving on the way back from Austin, I hate driving, so I turned on Cat Power, Ane Brun, and Venus Hum and was able to think about something else. It was Easter too, so traffic was horrible and everyone was getting into wrecks, where's the fire people? It's Sunday, Relax. My friend Denise and I were in a music video together recently, I usually don't do music videos, but it was fun actually, we got to hang around most of the day and got to hear some of Drew Kennedy's music, it was a nice day. So, being a music video vixen now, I can give the inside look of what really goes on, I have some pics on my facebook.com/julinjean under ATM, and also here are some videos with an interview from a cast/crew member on set. Check it out!